Wednesday, 14 March 2012

Struggle into the World

I must admit, I almost went backwards today, I slept terrible and then read an email that made me slip back into old thinking pattern, I break down in a flood of tears panicking thinking the world was going to end. My mum then sat me down set everything straight (like she always does) and told me not to go backward now when I have come so far. She then told me this "Your birth was very long & very hard, your spine was rubbing against mine making the birth painful & difficult for you to pass, but then all by yourself you turned yourself the right way with no help from the doctors or nurse, you did it all by yourself & you struggles your way into the world".  The more I thought about it the more it rang true, for a long time I did struggle & kept struggling, slowly but surely moving forward, and the thought brought me back to the lotus flower. I am the muddy bud, I wriggled & struggled out of mud & into the pond. My Mum always said that I am a late bloomer & that when I fully blossom, I shall by beautiful & bright, that I will light up others. 
 I'm very grateful for my mum, both my parents. They never push me to be something but gentle guided and supported me in all that I did, all they every wanted for me and my sibling is to be happy. So thank you Mum for today and all the other days and all the days to come, I'm so lucky to have a mum who loves and cares like you do, you make me proud to be your daughter and I'll try to give you at least one grandchild ;) I love you Mum, you truly are the best <3

With Love & Light


Thursday, 8 March 2012

Fairy Shrine =)

Merry meet all & welcome back =)

Today I went on a little trek over the field near my house,  seeing as my path is nature-based it's only natural to want to being in Nature as much as possible. Yesterday my younger brother today me that he had found an Angel statute, so on our daily dog walk he took me down to the part of the field which he found it. The area was littered with discard item found in any garden, broken pots, hedge trimmings & branches. Laying face down in the mud was the mentioned statue, we picked it up, setting her up right. She was covered in mud & something in my told me to clean her up & make her comfy. Our dog is rather old so he can't walk as much as he used to so I told my brother that'll we'll return tomorrow. When I went to bed I ask Father Sky to give me some sunshine so I could enjoy Mother Gaia's beauty and sure enough I awoke the next more so beautiful sunshine, despite the chill to the air, you think it was a normal Summer's day! So I packed a few things, my penknife to help scrap of the mud, some water, some broken crackers I thought to give to the birds & some biscuits as an offering. (I would of given some wild flowers too but I couldn't find any). And so we walk back to the little muddy statue & I set to work returning her to somewhat of her former self, I scraped off clumps of dirt, small embedded stones & grass before washing her off and bit by bit I found out that in fact she was not an Angel but a Faery. When I was done we set her against the tree that was near. The tree has lot of low branches & ivy hugging it's trunk, I thought it would be ideal for when it's leaves return she will become hidden. I left the biscuits on one of the lower branches & stepped back to snapped this photo and so my Faery Shrine was born. I thinking adding some more items & offering. Also taking more longer walks, it just so lovely to be out in the fresh air, walking on Mother Earth and feeling her pulse run through the land because you never know what you might just stumble across. ;)

With Love & Light


Tuesday, 6 March 2012

Okay so here goes, I'm not too good with this, um, talking thing but here we go...
Hello my name is Raven, the name is a gift from my mother & has been my second name since I was a teenager. You're probably wondering how I got the name of the blog, right? Well everyone knows the story of the lotus flower, it starts out in the murky depth of the pond, a pursed little bud, that slowly makes it way to the surface to blossom in a vision of purity & beauty. Yes, well I'm the muddy bud, I've come out of the "mud" & but haven't surfaced and blossomed and that is what my blog will be about, my journey to "blossoming" *exhales* Phew okay I think I'm doing good with this blogging thing, but I digress. 
I was in the "mud" for a long time & only recently have come out of it, the surface seems like a long way ahead but I can see the sunshine at least, so I think I'm on the right track =P. One of the things that helped me escape the mud ( besides my amazing other half) was discovering that I was a Witch. It was one of those funny light bulb moment that make you go "AH-HA!". Also it was like I had discovered a part of myself that had been asleep, it was truely wonderful. I had always felt that I was alittle different from everyone else, in the way I thought & saw the world anyway. It occurred when I was looking into Druidry funny enough, I had just finished reading an Arthurian trilogy by Bernard Cornwell (I adore books on Celtic/Iron Age). Somehow on my search for knowledge on Druids I came across a page on Wicca, what caught my ear was the pentacle on top of the article. I have been drawn to the pentacle pretty much the whole of my life but never knew why, as I began to read the article I was awe-struck, it was as if someone had been reading my mind, & thus the light bulb illuminated. I slapped my hand on the desk ( not really 'cause that would hurt) it all made sense & I thought to myself "I must learn more". So a began looking for a book to help me beginning to practise my Craft & I found "The Ultimate Book of Shadows for The New Generation Solitary Witch" by Raven SilverWolf (It was her name that drew me in, heehee) I have to admit it took me a year to read that book, I kept picking it up & putting it down when I got "muddy", but when I had finished I was satisfy that this was right for me. I noticed changes in me, my negative thoughts lessened, I noticed & felt more in touch with Mother Nature, I began to listen to the bird, notice leaved & berries of the trees and the flowers on the ground, I could "feel" the Earth & her energies(I had always "felt" thing but could never put a finger on it until now), my outlook had changed. That was the beginning of my path, but I haven't truly found my feet, I just know that I am a Witch & for now that good enough for me and I will do my best to live up to that, but I will continue on this journey of self-discovery, I must admit I don't know the way all I know is that someday I will blossom =)

With Love, Light & Blessings

Raven ~<3